Those Eyes

Those eyes had been my guide.

Those eyes had been my light.

Those eyes had held love for me,

Which disappeared all in a night.

Where I go wrong?

How did I end up here?

What made me deceive those beautiful eyes –

Had it only been fear?

I remember when

Those eyes had looked away from me,

Filled with a deep hurt.

The hurt had then changed to anger,

And my guiding light had disappeared.

Yes, it had been my fault –

I know this today.

But what’s done is done now,

To him I have nothing left to say...

-Rhea. B

29.03.09

Silence

It’s a lazy, lonely, new day.

I seem to be the only one

Who’s awake...

It’s quiet.

Still.

Not a sound.

Not even a bird’s chirp,

In the background.

The sun is still asleep –

Hiding behind a blanket of clouds.

I lie on my bed

Waiting for a sound,

Any sound,

To let me know

That it is just another normal day.

But all I hear is a deathly silence.

Where is everybody?

-Rhea. B

15.03.09

Fear

I look around this confined space,

And I feel frightened all of a sudden.

Where did the comfort, the hope, the calm go?

Why am I looking for an escape now?

I feel the warmth ebbing away,

And I desperately try to clutch at it.

But it’s gone now, vanished, disappeared,

As though it never did exist.

I try to comfort myself, like I always do,

But this time even that does not work.

I’m looking for an escape, a way out of this nightmare,

But I feel that it won’t come.

The stress envelopes me, choking me,

The pressure pounds on my head.

Too much is expected of me –

Too little I seem to give.

Torturous thoughts keep running through my mind,

Making my heart wrench in fear.

I sit back and close my tired eyes,

Willing myself to calm down.

I sit for what seems like hours on an end,

Waiting patiently.

I wait for this twisted fear to leave my soul,

To leave, and never return.

At long last, I feel my resolve strengthen.

My mind clears.

A divine peace settles on me.

And I know now what to do.

-Rhea. B

30.12.08

Death

“You are my bride,” Death snarled one night,

And hence you will do as I say.”

I shivered in fear, staring into his cold eyes,

Knowing I had no escape.

He leaned down and whispered in my ear,

Telling me what to do.

Hearing his words made me gasp in shock,

And stare at him with hate in my eyes.

He sent me up to the surface of earth,

And guided me to the house.

I walked - my feet making no sound -

Towards the open door.

I went over to the sleeping form,

And tears jumped into my eyes,

For there lay the most beautiful girl,

No older than a few years.

I woke her with a gentle shake,

And she sat up to stare at me.

She seemed to know who I was,

For she stood up, looking determined.

I took her with me, back to Death,

Who snatched her away with impatient hands.

I turned away, my eyes shut tight,

For I knew what was coming next.

A few seconds later I heard her shrieks,

Coming from down below.

A single sob escaped my throat,

As my dead heart grieved for the girl.

She now came out, followed by Death,

Who had a triumphant snarl on his face.

Her eyes were dead now, just like mine,

And her once beating heart stood still.

She looked at me with those lifeless eyes,

And it made my still heart wrench in pain.

Death saw the pain in my eyes,

And laughed softly, coldly.

He leaned down to whisper, again, in my ear,

“You are my bride. You will do as I say.”

I shut my eyes in a different kind of pain –

The pain of knowing that this would never end.

-Rhea. B

15.12.08

Revelation

I stood on my balcony,

Looking up at the sky,

Up at the beautiful moon

Who was shining so bright.

She smiled gracefully down at me,

Erasing all my worries.

It filled me from head to toe

With a divine and serene calm.

Her sons and daughters, the beautiful stars,

Stood by their mother, twinkling merrily.

They seemed to be playing a silent game with me,

And I played along, smiling gently.

It was in this perfect moment,

While I was surrounded only by beauty,

That I felt that everything would be alright;

That everything would work out eventually for me.

The moon seemed proud of my newfound revelation,

For she beamed, brighter than before.

The stars, sensing their mother’s happiness,

Twinkled and danced even more.

I walked back into my room,

Satisfied with everything I had.

I laid my head down on my soft pillow,

Knowing life couldn't be so bad.

-Rhea. B

13.12.2008