Fear

I look around this confined space,

And I feel frightened all of a sudden.

Where did the comfort, the hope, the calm go?

Why am I looking for an escape now?

I feel the warmth ebbing away,

And I desperately try to clutch at it.

But it’s gone now, vanished, disappeared,

As though it never did exist.

I try to comfort myself, like I always do,

But this time even that does not work.

I’m looking for an escape, a way out of this nightmare,

But I feel that it won’t come.

The stress envelopes me, choking me,

The pressure pounds on my head.

Too much is expected of me –

Too little I seem to give.

Torturous thoughts keep running through my mind,

Making my heart wrench in fear.

I sit back and close my tired eyes,

Willing myself to calm down.

I sit for what seems like hours on an end,

Waiting patiently.

I wait for this twisted fear to leave my soul,

To leave, and never return.

At long last, I feel my resolve strengthen.

My mind clears.

A divine peace settles on me.

And I know now what to do.

-Rhea. B

30.12.08